A Vertical Line

[AllisonRebeccah]

I want to take a knife and
Unzip my skin down the middle.
A vertical line—
Blooming open with fleshy lips.

I want to spill out across a tile floor.
I want my organs to scatter like little
Red marbles, and I want some of them
To disappear under crevices and down a/c vents.
So that when those white coats come to lace me
Back up again,
They fucking can’t.

I want those marbles edible.
I want to place them in my mouth and
Pop them in my teeth. They will burst forth
Alcohol,
Adderall,
Xanex, and
Semen.
And little prayer books so that little mini Jesuses
Will come to me and anchor me down already.

Buckle me down.
Strap me down.
Help me up again.